Closure

Loving you was turning away

Was ripping the parts of me that fit into you

Was cutting my fingertips off so I couldn’t 

Muss your hair 

Still perfectly parted

Loving you like learning how to write poetry

With lines of cliches crafted off similes like 

I would find a way to keep holding you with words

August 2019

“We will stay together forever only forever 

Is preserved in my heart 

Inside me fundamentally but if I tell it to stop, it will 

Keep beating, forever like that” 

December 2019

“I wish I was a flame, burned up until I can’t be used up anymore

And maybe once the heat dies 

I’ll cease to miss you”

January 2020

“One day I’ll look back and smile wistfully 

At all the “indoor” jokes 

And late-night conversations 

It’ll be so distant I won’t recall

That dimple on your chin 

Or your slightly crooked nose”

February 2020

“Ephemera 

Means only meant to last a short amount of time

Like the field of sunflowers we once danced through in dresses like

Rays of sun-touched skin in freckles in kisses and honeyed milk for sick throats 

That choked but still found a way to say 

I love you”

April 2020

“Like intersecting lines

Don’t stay connected, eventually 

Those lines leave 

And only the graph of their placement remains”

July 2021

“Did you even exist 

Or was this merely a dream?”

March 2024

My ephemera

Meant to last a short period of time 

I remember the ways you kept coming 

Back when it was time to stay away

But I forgot 

About the dimple 

On your chin 

And today I think

That’s what it means 

To move on