The cafe with the marble statue I swore I’d steal
The place of our first kiss
Where I’d joked I’d take all my first dates
The place I first realized I didn’t
Love you anymore
You first beginning to look fetid
Sallow yellow teeth bared at me in a smile
Trepidations of breaking up haunt your throat
Choking out affirmations you think I want
About how you’re finally feeling stable
We’re stable and
My feelings stable
Stabilize
Stall
The first confrontation we needed to have had months ago
When every last thread of trust
Unravels itself in your shifting colors
Colored me black
A sign that mourning would finally break its fast with
The first permanent goodbye
Lucifer’s Halo 